Circle of thoughts..

So many thought racing through my mind..

Thoughts with no clear demarcations..

Its just running wild inside my brain without any bars to stop it..

Sometimes there is an anticipation of something wonderful to happen…

Sometimes there is fear of what is going to happen…

Sometimes skepticism of everything…

Sometimes just glad of the past…

Sometimes an undertone of sadness of what was there in the past…

Sometimes an excitement of new things...

Sometimes restlessness to do something rather than waiting for it to happen…

Where all this juggling thoughts are taking me I have no idea…

But whatever is going to happen now will be good…

Just have this feeling that it’s not good in conventional sense of good but something that will atlast feel good ….

Just content…………..

Merry Christmas …

Perception

Imagine spending your time with a group so big that connecting with individuals emotionally is difficult.

Have you ever noticed that that’s when you like people the most?

When you don’t indulge your mind in picking up knick knacks in another person.

You get all positive vibes because there is free energy flowing around you.

There is no pressure on you to give special attention to particular people.

So why can’t we have the same bond with the very few people who are close to your heart.

Well the simple answer to this is we are more critical to the people who are close to our heart.

So what’s the issue at the core?

Why do we over analyse things that are best left on its own.

Well the only thing that’s clear to me is our PERSPECTIVE OF OTHERS.

We view each gesture according to our perspective.

The moment we justify others actions from their perspective everything will be hunky dory as it should be

My quixotic world

My world is a puerile dream.

The quietude of my world disturbed by the quips of reality.

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I fail to fathom the attitudes of people.

I am a person who likes to reply and repay promptly.

One who wants to truly understand other person’s problems without seeing it as an obligation.

In the moment always.

Yet when it comes to my dealings I see nonchalance as if it’s a duty on their part.

Am I wrong it wanting those few people to b there in spirit as well?

Innumerable acquaintances and social friends.

Yet at the time of need few to b relied on.

Sometimes I mislead myself in thinking they need me.

Off course when all had a laugh at that I realize there was a motive behind that as well.

It would be wrong of me if I claim I have got no one to look back on.

Have some priceless people in my life but in different spheres.

They are there in totality and I am blessed to have them.

Yet am I wrong to crave for people like them in every angle of my life?

Am I wrong in trying to see a mirror of my attitude in every person I deal with everyday?

Sparkling light moments for acquaintances and one star moment for friendship is all it takes for me.

But I think I jump the fence a little too soon and end up getting hurt.

Why don’t I just enjoy a soft gallop and take the leap at the right moment.

Why do I give away my trust so easily?

Am I wrong to trust every friend to be my true friend in essence?

These are pure rhetoric questions for me.

But I don’t mind these questions as for each question I have got a counter argument in the form of a person who may be just for milliseconds made me believe in my quixotic world.

With each passing moment I explore new people.

And in some rare moments I find my quixotic world after all practical.

I live for these moments.

Just some thoughts…

I am a misfit in a world of majesty, glamour and

power with no inherent beauty,.

A world clustered by people yet comprised of individuals isolated from each other by their own world.

Each person to engrossed in his or her microcosm, people driven by their needs and dreams.

Each entity enclosed in a crystal ball yet happy with the glorious but misleading vision.

Appearance paramount, the thing most priced in forming an image.

Emotions are female whims which are to petty to be acknowledged.

Saying Hello Hi… is a waste of time what’s important is YOUR problem to be discussed, YOUR situation…

The other person must be fine but no time to confirm.

He or she must be on the right track but no time to guide.

Nothing can come between you and yourself.

“You are selfish so is the world” a thought shared by one and all.

Sensitivity and feelings are childish dreams to be mocked upon not to be understood.

To cherish your moments and not cherish everyone’s moment is IN.

Pretending to be a paragon of virtues of which you have got no idea.

Backbiting and backstabbing norm of the day.

Yet after facing so much negativity every day there is one thing that keeps us alive and that’s our family.

Family who restores your faith in you and always make you feel secured.

People who share and understand your thoughts.

Someone on whom you can always rely on and who will always be there just behind you to lend you support at difficult times.

Likewise am always there for them, heart, mind, body and soul.

Stand for your belief

It’s always been the case the outspoken becomes the black sheep in every situation.
Is it wrong to project your views and true feelings as it is?
Being transparent is a curse in a world where people hide themselves behind a plastic smile and pretend every thing is hunky-dory.
People want to just save their own skin.
They are tigers when voicing their opinion in group but grow cold feet on being asked to stand up for their views.
Madame Tauxad’s waxworks are preferable to such plastic people claiming to be human beings.
These are servile dependents who are opportunists in the first place, making use of people around them and themselves becoming paragon of false sweetness.

So what does a person do who believes in his thoughts, emotions and beliefs.
A person who is gutsy to voice his opinion and doesn’t shrink from his responsibilities
A person who has got zillion friends yet few to count.
Is he at fault for being like this?
Should he change himself and become life wretched inhuman beings around him.
Should he to follow the crowd and keep his head bowed down at all times.

NO….
Imagine a world where you do not know who your true well wishers are.
Just because the majority is like this doesn’t mean they are right in the first place.
Be true to yourself if your conscience says so, because ultimately you are answerable to yourself.
Out of the thousand deeds done by you at least one will reciprocate.
So for that hope live the moments with your ideologies.
Never compromise, because you won’t ever be able to justify that
What future hold for us we never know.
Just do the right things and let it shape your life as it wants to.

Iridescent hues of people…

Each one of us a unique creation of god, marked by a unique blend of personality and character.
Standing out for our principles and beliefs, ideologies influenced and inspired by our surrounding and upbringing.
But then who is complaining, life would have been a dead bore with clones.
To add spice to your life you need people who baffle you with their idiosyncrasies and intelligence at the same time.

There is Nivedita Rao as sweet as one can get. When I while away my time reading novels instead of studyng during the PL’s I know there is a crazy friend of mine who must have in all probability finished that same novel two days back.
Soft spoken, angelic face and naïve approach are attributes that set her apart.

Then there is Ramya the ultimate gossip queen. Knows every story right from the neighbour who ran away with the auto rickshaw wallah to the lip job done by Aishwarya.
One whose phone bills run upto some 9000 bucks, some one as funky in appearance as her attitude towards her dear ones.

Offcoz the great Jyothsna Chandrapti……
Total nutcase, pretty face and a logical mind slower than the tortoise.
But a studious girl which is in complete contras too her laidback and lazy lifestyle.
A person who meets everything with equanimity and chilled out attitude.

How can I forget the hot blood Tejas Bhamburkar aka bamboo…
Stands at 6ft 3” who can talk 24/7 and terribly hooked on to his friends.
Meticulous in his work and concerned with everyone else’s life.
Friends are v important to him yet we become invisible once Jyo is there J.

Sushant Dewan aka CD the one and only guy in our group who is concerned about his professional life. Also the only one who cares to lecture a bunch of morons like us on our respective careers. A great listener, my confidant and a brilliant mathematician.

Purnima well what to say about this crazy character. Top in her acads and maturity that is unmatched. Have been a dutiful daughter and like a mother to her little sis.

Divya sharma charming personality, cute boy friend, responsible in her work and frugal.
Doing an engg course of four years yet no interest in technical side. A dream girl with eyes set on IIMs.

Ladies and Gentlemen meet Chithu, confusion etched on her face day in and out. Have the reputation of a studious girl but in reality a lazy bum.

Shweta weirdest creature walking on the earth. The person who is misunderstood to be rude by one and all yet the gentlest creature alive.

Sleeping a passion for Swati Suri, will try to skirt all work for sleep.Stubborn as hell on her decisions and sweet as heaven in person.

Ghosh they all are so different, yet they add a new meaning to my everyday life.
Their eccentricities and disparities have added some interesting pieces to the puzzle of my life.

Luv you all.

Dance my milieu...

Dance has the capacity to make ugly Betty look like Cinderella.
It can wipe out your stage fear and lets you conquer the world with your grace and charm.
It brings out the real you, the one that was lying under the veil of self doubt and insecurity.
Are these words just music to your ears or do they have a ring of truth in them.

The best that I feel I can justify my claims is by presenting my own dance group.
A person who never took the mantle of leadership, who would come across as person who would like to b guided all the way.
But hidden was a quality to prove to the world that she is very much capable of handling her responsibilities.
Dancing gave her a platform to showcase her talent, to show to the world that she is the mistress of her world.

A person bestowed with a pretty face yet as confused about her life as she is about herself.
But few know that once she knows what she wants to do, her work has a finesse and beauty unmatched.
This comes across in her graceful dancing.
Her each and every movement shows a grace that comes inherently.

A person who cribs and fidgets all day about her looks all day.
A person who in spite of the whole world assuring her that she looks good is uncomfortable and is shrouded in the doubt of her capabilities.
But when she is own stage she is the most beautiful person to behold … why?
Because that moment she lets herself out without restrain.
She feels beautiful and the world knows she is.

Dance in a way brings out team work.
When a couple dances, the girl trusts the guy to guide her.
In return she trusts her belief and judgment.
The guy learns to respect women, to hold her with care, with love yet with a dignity which is a rare virtue.

There is no form of dancing.
Dance whatever you feel like doing.
Standards are set by humans not god hence are meant to be broken and re invented.
So shed your inhibitions, self doubt and dance away your feelings.
Remember dance does not need a great dancer or time or choreographer, you just need the HEART to dance.

Have we lost ourselves.......

Friendship …Friendship …Friendship
Haven’t we been exposed to this word since time immemorial?
This is one human relationship which has been the essence, the starting plug, the life of all relationships.
Everyone craves for great friends, friends who will be there for you in sickness and happiness.
People who cherish you the way god has made you, admonish your wrong ways, applaud your achievements, guide you through rough times, nurture your dreams and celebrate with you your special moments.
But …………
has this new scientific world maimed this gentle, delicate and beautiful world of friendship.
Today’s world has transformed people into machines, machines that go on and on with no time for such mundane things as friendship.
Today we are so engrossed in our day to day work; we don’t find time for simple things as enquiring your friend’s well being and health.
Today’s youth equate friendship to hangouts.
This era has proved to be a boon as well as a curse.
World is scattered with opportunities and people are just desperate to grab them.
Life style has become luxurious but human feelings have taken a backseat.
People are so bedazzled by their success that they tend to overlook the persons they have lost in their way.
Now people come up with justification that “To achieve something you have to sacrifice some things”, true, but not yourself.
You, your soul crave for human touch, human emotions not materialistic things.
What’s the use of all these materialistic things that you have garnered if you have no one to share that with?
If you can’t enjoy what you have achieved what was the big idea of achieving it.
What we need to know is the balancing act.
Take out time for your loved ones because they are the ones who will even at the age of 90 say “You are a great human being”.
Be with them during their special moments; during bad times make them feel they can always find a support in you.
In return you will feel content and happy and never be lonely and alone.
Take out time to feel and enjoy the iridescent hues of life.

Great expectations

Life is magnificent, each one of us just small entities trying to fathom the beautiful exquisite word life.
But do we need to be scared of what’s in store for us in life.
Hasn’t our experience till now taught us one valuable lesson that nothing is in our hands yet everything is connected to our doings?
We have no right to dictate its terms, yet it unfolds in ways that seems to b linked in an obscure way.
Every relationship, every day, each moment, every look, every smile, every handshake has immense value.
Each one of them gives us tools to live this life to the fullest; it’s up to us to grab them.
Don't expect anything from life, from friends, from your family,
Your are here to live life, give life to someone else’s journey not to take away something that doesn’t belong to you in the first place.
Who are you to expect.
Do you think you are that great a person to expect?
Be humble enough to not expect. Expectation is the venom that destroys our life, the meaning to our existence.
Doing something in return for something is itself the bane to your very existence.
You feel content in getting the expected but getting the unexpected is glorious.
There is a beautiful rose in store for us every moment, but to hold the beauty you need to feel the thorns first.
Live life freely savor every moment, laugh out loud when you are happy, smile when you are content, cry if you are sad, because those moments well never come back.
That’s the beauty of life, it never lets you relive the moments that has elapsed. Past is to cherished, present to be lived and future to be anticipated.